She’s Here

It's been a while since I've been on here and I've been trying to find the words, but every chance I get and think back, I'm left speechless. This experience, this memory deserves more than just a "quick" journal entry. This journey deserves the utmost attention, but it's hard to express what I felt.

We've waited so long for your arrival, at least it felt like that. People think...39 weeks and 1 day isn't long, but in actuality, we waited years for you. There were times that I felt that it wasn’t in the cards for us. I often dreamt' of what you'd be like, what you'd look like and how our lives would change upon your arrival. Until you came, I have never experienced a level of excitement until you arrived. 

The morning of your arrival, we waited till the hospital called to give us the "green light." From the beginning I was very emotional and your father did all he could to take my mind off the fact that you were going to be in our arms real soon. I was extremely emotional and overwhelmed. I cried..not once, not twice, but multiple times. We prayed for you for so long, and the journey felt like it was never ending.

We went to the hospital and they hooked me up to all the monitors. Soon after, my Doctor came in and broke my water. As soon as that happened, a gush of liquid came, I knew it was real...too real. 

They played around with my levels of Pitocin and I started to feel contractions. I didn’t start pushing till the clock struck 11pm, and I was still at 8cm. You were also still high up there. The Doctor came in and I still continued to push…I was so EXHAUSTED, but I needed to have some progress to get you out and in my arms.

After what seemed like hours of pushing, the nurse took my vitals and called the Doctor immediately. I knew something seemed wrong, but I didn’t want to hear it till she was in the room. My Doctor told me that I had developed a fever due to your bowel movement inside the womb and you and I were developing an infection. They had to rush me into an Emergency C-Section as soon as possible.

I remember every detail of what happened next, all while my eyes were closed. It was the fastest 30 minutes of my life and as soon as they laid you on my chest all my thoughts and worries had gone away. You are my best journey to date. Goldie Wylde Betz, November 9th at 1:01am. Goldie, because you are the pot of gold at the end of our rainbow journey.